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Feeling compelled to write today although I am not sure what I want/need to say. After sharing with some trusted friends about God's calling on my life, I came to some very strange thought processes. Does the audible voice of God sound similar to my wife's voice? I wonder if God has been trying to reach me through those I love. My entire life people/family have been reporting to me what they see as God's calling on my life. Why don't I feel it? Am I ready? Do my insecurities/fears contribute to my lack of heading? How to obey a calling when you are not sure what that calling is?

I also wonder if God needs to work on me before he reveals his plan. I am aware that I fall short of the person God wants me to be. I struggle daily and sadly fail more than I care to admit. Does God want me to step out in faith first to reveal his plan? I want to step out but what steps does he want me to take. Why am I afraid of falling short?

Dear God,

I heard you have been trying to reach me. Please forgive me for not being there to receive your message. Help me to discover your calling for my life. I am thankful that you have called me into your plan. Please give me the courage to step out and actively pursue you. Please be patient with me when I stumble. Please help me to remove the obstructions I have in my life to better serve you. Please comfort me and prod me when I am reluctant in my stubbornness. Please deal with me in my personal struggles to be the man you have called me to be. I long to delight you and make you proud. I wish for your loving embrace when my work has been fulfilled. Please heal the wounds that have been inflicted on my heart as I begin to fill it with a passion to serve you. Please give me the wisdom to deal with the powers that wish to stop your plan.

A Warrior in the Making